No one
could have predicted this
That things would turn out
the way they did
Don't be fooled, it's not the truth
but it could be
screams the meager voice
it could be
and maybe
that's what scares me the most
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label writing. Show all posts
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Obssessed
I kind of scared of what I'm becoming...
I'm obsessed with my books. Obsessed. Which is normal for authors, healthy even, but not whne it's this much. 5 years I've been working on them, growing slowly more and more engrossed in them... Now I can't go half an hour without thinking about them. I see my characters in everyone, everything. It's the only thing i can think about whenever i listen to any music, go driving anywhere, when I'm going to school, eating lunch, walking through the halls... I draw about them most every day, (I'm a doodler) and I swear to god I get orgasms just making up new plots, or fixing a loop hole or something. Crazy, right? I don't know what it's doing to me. It's like a big cloud (not nessasarily a bad one, mid you, but an all encompassing mental fog) that follows me everywhere. I don't have my own thoughts anymore, I have book thoughts. I use my books as a basic structure for the way I view the way the gods create the ongoing story of our lives. I don't think ANYBODY is THAT obsessed with their writing, now are they? Plus, I'm only 2/3rds done with the first book, and there's four of them, so I'm going to be obsessed for a long, LONG time to come.
Drowning in my own creative genious? Help!
I'm obsessed with my books. Obsessed. Which is normal for authors, healthy even, but not whne it's this much. 5 years I've been working on them, growing slowly more and more engrossed in them... Now I can't go half an hour without thinking about them. I see my characters in everyone, everything. It's the only thing i can think about whenever i listen to any music, go driving anywhere, when I'm going to school, eating lunch, walking through the halls... I draw about them most every day, (I'm a doodler) and I swear to god I get orgasms just making up new plots, or fixing a loop hole or something. Crazy, right? I don't know what it's doing to me. It's like a big cloud (not nessasarily a bad one, mid you, but an all encompassing mental fog) that follows me everywhere. I don't have my own thoughts anymore, I have book thoughts. I use my books as a basic structure for the way I view the way the gods create the ongoing story of our lives. I don't think ANYBODY is THAT obsessed with their writing, now are they? Plus, I'm only 2/3rds done with the first book, and there's four of them, so I'm going to be obsessed for a long, LONG time to come.
Drowning in my own creative genious? Help!
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