Right now I'm caught i the middle of two different lives... the old one here, and the new one awaiting me at my new home. It's kinda weird...really surreal, and kind of numb, like you know everything going on around you is pointless now, but you also are trying to savor it because you know it will be gone soon... I'm nervous about it, the move; will I be able to find someone for me there? I' building all these hopes up, that this can be a fresh start, that I can reinvent myself a little and lead a better life, but I'm really scared that when I get there nothing will have changed, and it will all be the same.
I'm so damn lonely, god, it really sucks. I miss having somebody who really loves me, who actually gives a flying shit about what I do and how I think... It's just so dismal without a boyfriend, which maybe some might think is me just afraid to be alone, which it sort of is... the thing is, really, that I have all this love built up inside waiting for somebody to be poured into, but I don't have anybody like that anymore, so the love is just sort of festering inside my soul like old perfume. It hurts to have love for someone who doesn't exist...
I need somebody to pull me up, because I'm fallin' and I'm fallin' hard.
Hope everybody out there has somebody like that. Don't lose them. You don't realize what you had until it's gone, and this is the most important thing in your life. Live without fear, love without regret, embrace like the world is ending.
I'm so damn lonely, god, it really sucks. I miss having somebody who really loves me, who actually gives a flying shit about what I do and how I think... It's just so dismal without a boyfriend, which maybe some might think is me just afraid to be alone, which it sort of is... the thing is, really, that I have all this love built up inside waiting for somebody to be poured into, but I don't have anybody like that anymore, so the love is just sort of festering inside my soul like old perfume. It hurts to have love for someone who doesn't exist...
I need somebody to pull me up, because I'm fallin' and I'm fallin' hard.
Hope everybody out there has somebody like that. Don't lose them. You don't realize what you had until it's gone, and this is the most important thing in your life. Live without fear, love without regret, embrace like the world is ending.
