Forgotten...

And you know what...?

My ex-friend and I, we share the same name.... and I want nothing to do with it. Everytime I look at my schoolwork, cards, anything, I always am reminded of her. In those five little letters, I don't see myself, I see the smirking face of a condescending bitch who deserves nothing of me.

And, thusly, I formally denounce my name.

I mind it not, in sooth, does not a rose smell just as sweet by any other name? Mayhap it may smell even sweeter.

This past summer...

Ugh! That's all I have to say about it. It's been a terrible, terrible summer in all aspects! Firstly, my school let out way too late, and my summer break only actually really started for me on the first of July. Then, of course the weather's been absolutely horrible! It's been the rainiest summer ever recorded in my area, and the skies were just consistently grey and ugly. Then I went to Young Life camp up in the mountains hoping it would be the vacation I so desperately needed, only to be completely blown off by my friend (the one I refuse to see ever again, for reasons quite related to her behavior this summer). She said some really stupid bullshit that made me want to leave her and my god-forsaken little town for good, which may actually happen (it's about a 70% chance, I'd say) because my dad was laid off half a year ago, and has virtually exhausted the job field in this area.

So I had to deal with the stress of maybe-moving the WHOLE summer and on top of that I kept questioning my relationship with my now ex-boyfriend. Then it was my birthday the day I got home from camp, but it took me two weeks to have a party for it because I'd been too busy planning for the camping trip which actually ended up being one of the WORST weeks of my life. The ironic thing is, even though it was a horrible week, I still had to pay my parents half of the camp fee, $250.00 ! So it was like I payed to be miserable somewhere else, when I could have been miserable right here! (lol)

Anyways so my birthday party which I had been looking forward to forever and a half was terrible as well. I'd given my ex-friend one more chance by inviting her to the party, but she was a complete bitch and pretty much sucked every body's attention dry. ( --Does that make sense to anybody else...?)

Yep, she's a fun-sucker.

Anyways, so she gobbled up every body's attention and I was left in the back of the room wondering how I wasn't even part of the conversation, considering it was at my house and I was the host and everything (not to mention it was kind of my birthday, lol). So my ex-friend steals my laptop (without asking, how rude is that...??) and just starts showing all of these random videos to people, and I'm in the corner like, "what just happened...?"

So I left.

Period. I just left the room, went downstairs, and would you know it took those *grits her teeth trying not to call her friends bad names* @$%&*$@# ten whole minutes before they even realised I was gone? Kind of amazing, since I had to practically step on their faces to get to the door and everything.

So yeah, I was really pissed off this summer... plus all the crops we planted in our garden were stunted first by the lousy weather, then the ones that actually did manage to grow were eaten off by lousy raccoons before they even got ripe, and my brother proceeded to trap and kill the raccoons without asking me or anybody else, which really pissed me off because I'm wiccan and the whole "I F-ing love the whole world" thing, so yeah, it was a terrible summer.

Sheesh. And I still am probably going to move, but at this point, hell, I want to get out of this stinking place.

Hey bitch

So there's this girl who used to be my friend, except after taking abuse for years and years and years I decided to break it off with her. She was being an egotistical bitch and always put me down, and I finally decided to say screw you! I deserve better friends than you!

I'd gotten pissed at her for the head-games she played with me at summer camp, and I'd given her one more chance but she blew it and only reminded me why I hate people like her. True friends don't try to dominate the relationship and turn you into their worshipper. And so, I just wanted to say...


After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end
I wanna thank you 'cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mhm

After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that
I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know
Just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this girl I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended to not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU WON'T STOP ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter


Thought I would forget, but I
I remember
Cause I remember
I remember

Thought I would forget, but I
I remember
Cause I remember
I remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

P.S. Bitch I hate you

-You know who