I'm alive! ALIIIIVE!!! :O

Yep, I seem to have survived the six month societal isolation thing sort-of-relatively-almost-okay-ish. My birthday's coming up on the 10th at midnight. (or the 11th, whichever way you spin it) Huzzah, I'll be 17. Not that I don't already feel like I'm 20.

So I have Young Life Camp on the 10th too, which is cool. Hope my friend won't screw me over again like she did last year... In most likelihood though she'll have been missing me too much to fuck me over. Which I guess is...good?

I think I'm about 6 chapters away from finishing my first book...then comes publication...but not before I illustrate the damn thing :P But anyways it's going great...I've been sort of showing my family members my stuff on it when they came up for the reunion. They were all impressed, not to be egotistical. Mild-enthusiasm-yay?

Now that the reunion's over I'm all alone in the house with my parents again :/ Hell...

Blaaarrrgggg...*sigh* anyways, I STILL can't stop thinking of Blackjack, and everybody keeps telling me he's a lost cause and it's better this way and so on and so forth. Pisses me off...

I found some amazing music for my books on Youtube...Go look up Loreena Mckennit on Youtube you guys, she's AWESOME. My favs are The Mummers Dance, The Old Ways, her cover of Emmanuel, and The Mystic's Dream. *squee* Also, another great band for my books is Blackmore's Night. My favs from them are Ghost of a Rose and Under a Violet Moon.

West point is okay-ish, but Highland Falls is GHEY. >:/ So is Fort Montgomery. New York City is sort of cool, but freakin expensive as HELL and the subways are so...ICK /:[

and...who wants to check me out on Gaiaonline?? :D You do?? I knew you did :) Just go to Gaiaonline.com and search for Autumn Gracy. :D

...yay Gaia

Also, go check out Romantically Apocalyptic, an awesome webcomic I found. (Go find it on Deviantart.com) You can also find me at Deviantart.com, under Autumn Gracy. Some of my book stuff is there...hopefully I'll be uploading sketches soon.

luff, Sarah/Autumn/Carling/whatever name I feel like

This past summer...

Ugh! That's all I have to say about it. It's been a terrible, terrible summer in all aspects! Firstly, my school let out way too late, and my summer break only actually really started for me on the first of July. Then, of course the weather's been absolutely horrible! It's been the rainiest summer ever recorded in my area, and the skies were just consistently grey and ugly. Then I went to Young Life camp up in the mountains hoping it would be the vacation I so desperately needed, only to be completely blown off by my friend (the one I refuse to see ever again, for reasons quite related to her behavior this summer). She said some really stupid bullshit that made me want to leave her and my god-forsaken little town for good, which may actually happen (it's about a 70% chance, I'd say) because my dad was laid off half a year ago, and has virtually exhausted the job field in this area.

So I had to deal with the stress of maybe-moving the WHOLE summer and on top of that I kept questioning my relationship with my now ex-boyfriend. Then it was my birthday the day I got home from camp, but it took me two weeks to have a party for it because I'd been too busy planning for the camping trip which actually ended up being one of the WORST weeks of my life. The ironic thing is, even though it was a horrible week, I still had to pay my parents half of the camp fee, $250.00 ! So it was like I payed to be miserable somewhere else, when I could have been miserable right here! (lol)

Anyways so my birthday party which I had been looking forward to forever and a half was terrible as well. I'd given my ex-friend one more chance by inviting her to the party, but she was a complete bitch and pretty much sucked every body's attention dry. ( --Does that make sense to anybody else...?)

Yep, she's a fun-sucker.

Anyways, so she gobbled up every body's attention and I was left in the back of the room wondering how I wasn't even part of the conversation, considering it was at my house and I was the host and everything (not to mention it was kind of my birthday, lol). So my ex-friend steals my laptop (without asking, how rude is that...??) and just starts showing all of these random videos to people, and I'm in the corner like, "what just happened...?"

So I left.

Period. I just left the room, went downstairs, and would you know it took those *grits her teeth trying not to call her friends bad names* @$%&*$@# ten whole minutes before they even realised I was gone? Kind of amazing, since I had to practically step on their faces to get to the door and everything.

So yeah, I was really pissed off this summer... plus all the crops we planted in our garden were stunted first by the lousy weather, then the ones that actually did manage to grow were eaten off by lousy raccoons before they even got ripe, and my brother proceeded to trap and kill the raccoons without asking me or anybody else, which really pissed me off because I'm wiccan and the whole "I F-ing love the whole world" thing, so yeah, it was a terrible summer.

Sheesh. And I still am probably going to move, but at this point, hell, I want to get out of this stinking place.